Monday, August 28, 2006

Shine on You Crazy Diamond


I can only hear the sound of the guitar playing smooth in the background of nothingness. and a pinch of sax transitions in... and the smoke that I just swallowed, only as I try and hold on to it because I want to remain in the emptiness, leaves me. I only want to live in this music. In this moment. The song doesn’t mean anything to me. It’s just the sound of it. The groove that it carves only for me to comfortably sink in… I give in. The voice doesn’t mean a thing. It’s the sound of it. The pace, it makes me the docile follower… My cigarette moves to my lips and back by my side and it is almost mechanical. Am I even thinking as I write this… I am in doubt. Maybe I am just falling… and will continue to fall until I find a place to rest. Blankness is the ultimate feeling… time has no value. What was he thinking when he created it? What is it about this piece of sound. Is it as basic as just that… because it consumes me completely… my eyes don’t matter because I don’t see nothing anyway… maybe it is what he says… shine… I want to shine… like a diamond… like a crazy diamond… the taste of that cigarette only wakes me up to write on… I start watching the smoke taking free shape as it becomes one with space… its going nowhere… but I follow it… and as the song plays on… plays on my blank mind… it hypnotises me into a worse state of emptiness… and when I feel my fingers burn… with all the obstinate urge to foolishly follow rooted in me… I reach for another cigarette and push the play button one more time… I see the candle on my table dying out… the sound commands a crossfire in my mind to find meaning in nothing at all… and I’m looped in this deception song… it should never end… I beg for it rule my senses… foreve... be my escape... [cough]

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

did u really write this./..guess ppl change for better.. do u really mean whats written...maybe u got the song all wrong....was written in memory of syd barrett... he was crazy with lsd and when asked if he wanted to leave floyd or lsd by waters he said that he would leave floyd but will stick on to lsd...he was the most talented of all the members and wrote all the lyrics for the first three floyd albums before lsd took him away... crazy guy////...so like that....lol anyways u write well... keep on writin... maybe a booker is waitin for u ....good work!!!

I am... said...

Thanks for leaving the comment. I dont know u do i? In any case, i just want to say that this song doesnt mean anything to me... in the sense, i do not care for who wrote it, why and when. But its JUST the SOUND of it. And my associations with the sounds. And about meaning what i ve written, I'll have to leave it up to the reader! Thanks again, Keep readin..

Dizzy said...

wheres the newwww pooooosssttt?????

Gyan said...

i don't know abt others but yeah waht ever u tried to express is fully true...........when u feel every puff which goes into u n takes u to where no one has gone ...............n